Thoughts on Psalm 19 (ish)

The sun rejoices –
eager –
Like a bridegroom,
Bursting forth.
Day is a joyous thing
If only for the joyous sun.

God’s words revive –
Like cool water –
Spilling over
Cracked, dry, land
Deserts are a joyous thing,
if only for the joyous return
(to life)

The sky is magnificent,
singing –
Song not heard,
But felt,
Deep in our being.
Creation is a joyous thing,
If only for its joyous Creator.

Always be joyful in the Lord! And I’ll say it again, rejoice!

-Philippians 4:4

The Psalms have filled my morning (or late afternoon, or early evening, or whenever I find, or sometimes make, time) with their pleading, human, seeking, worshipful words. One a day…. or, one every third day because I kind of neglect to spend time in God’s Word on far too many occasions. They are true poetry. I’m not really sure how I missed out on their beauty for so long. There is so much imagery, so much depth, so much sorrow, so mush discovery, so much JOY. It is a rare occasion to find a Psalm that does not say something about rejoicing or joy or life. Even when the Psalmist is surrounded by enemies, demanding that God answer his calls, begging for relief, begging for a sign the God is listening, there is a resolve of “rejoice.”

I often try to heap guilt on myself. I often try to force myself to see how unworthy I am. Sometime ago I convinced myself that the best way to see God’s love was to view my own depravity. I try to view God’s love in light of my failure. I try to view God’s love as great because he loves me “in spite of the way I disappoint him.” I try to talk myself into feeling like a miserable being for days and weeks at a time, subservient to love of God that is ever held over my head because I am so unworthy of it. This is not Truth. This is the lie of the enemy. The Truth of God is this:

“Self-rejection contradicts the Sacred voice that calls me the Beloved.”
The rejection of being Beloved is the rejection of how God sees me – it is rejecting who I am.
God cannot be disappointed in me.
I cannot relate to God as the God who loves me unconditionally if I do not see myself as the child who is unconditionally loved.
God’s love for me is what gives me value. Because he love infinitely, I have infinite value. Because I have infinite value, he delights in me.

I am learning to live as the one in whom God delights. I am learning to live as the one on whom God spends his infinite, fiery love and devotion. I am learning to live as Beloved. I am learning the joy of the Psalmists. I am learning that living as who I am bears the fruit that is joy because being loved like that leaves no other option. I am learning to delight in God, to be delighted in by God. I am leaning to feel free in smiling and laughing at little things. I am learning to by fully human, which is to be fully loved by God. I am learning to live into what God speaks to every human being ever in Jesus, which is this: God and humanity in loving relationship. This is why I was created – delightful intimacy with God. This is why you were created – delightful intimacy with God. It cannot be denied – it is written at the very depths of our hearts and souls – it cannot be undone. God does not say to us, “I love you, though you are an utter failure,” God says to us “I created you to love you. You are the desire of my heart. I created you for LIFE and life to the fullest! How I adore you! How I love you! How beautiful you are! Oh come love me too! Come rest in my presence! Come fly with me! Come outside, breathe the air, feel the sun, hear the birds sing, see the blue sky, rejoice! for YOU are greater to me than all of this! You are my Beloved. YOU are my greatest desire!”

Rejoice! How, fellow human, fellow Beloved, could we do anything other than this when we are loved like this? How could we do anything other than live when we are created for such a purpose as this – to be loved deeply, intimately, scandalously, beautifully loved. Breathe. Listen. Allow yourself to be captivated. And rejoice! I’ll say it again! Rejoice!

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